Monday, July 7, 2008

4th of JULY!

Friends, Patriots!, Countrymen...lend me your ears!

I so had to memorize that speech for 10th grade English. (In case you didn't know, it's actually Romans, not Patriots.)

I had a fabulous 4th. I worked all day at time and a half, which included a BBQ, and an hour break which also included a BBQ with my girl Amy's family in Orem. Little did I know she has hot cousins. Which I also found out are under age. (Ew.) I then came home early around 6 PM only to be invited to another BBQ with the boys who live in my complex/neighbor ward. That was fun, as I finally got to meet some of them. The boy with the jet skiis still hasn't shown his face, but no worries, I am on top of it, lol. Does it sound like I might be on the look out to use him for his toys? Um...yes. I'll admit it. And can I please have a pat on the back for at least admitting it? Come on. Girls do sneaky things all the time, and at least I'm admitting it. Don't hate me, hate the freaking game. Tangent!
So then Amanda and her friends got together up in Thanksgiving Point and we watched the fireworks there. We played a good round of Apples to Apples - I almost won - and then Catch Phrase, which my team did win. You guys...I am so competitive with games. I feel like it's stupid to play if there isn't some point, like consequences, bragging rights, compensation...etc. Then we got the best seat ever. I took one picture. It was perfect. That's all I needed. It is now on my phone. Afterwards we lit our sparklers, continued to tell stories and horse around (at which point a human pyramid was suggested - this pic is before matt made it to the top. And he made it, no doubt) until the worst of the traffic was gone, and then we headed to Tawna's family's house which was AMAZING! We talked around the pool and hottub till around 12 then left for home. It was a full day for sure. This year wasn't sincerely patriotic for me, but I'll make up for it next year.

Summer Gems

I love hammocks, oh. my. gosh.
My neighbors Adam and Barrett have this incredible soft canvas hammock that surprisingly fits 2 people nicely (just found that out today), and I am still trying to convince Adam to just give me freaking key to their apartment so I can use it whenever I want. I mean for real. It's annoying to have to call one of them to let me in. They seem fairly ok with it so I suppose I'll just keep calling them. Anyway, it is one of those gems of my summer thus far. If I had to put my summer gems in order, they would probably go as follows:
1. VP 71 Hammock. Enough said.
2. Soel's "It's Yoga!" studio in the Riverwoods. I LOVE YOGA. I did it in highschool for about a year, and I gave up on it once I moved out here for college. I started again though and I've been going 2-3 times a week. One thing that is so obvious to me now: my arms are weak. I just learned how to do a head stand (with a wall) and a hand stand, but I can hardly hold myself up! I have other poses down, so I'm not totally useless.
3. Sammy's (new diner i just found near center street last night with Travis, open till 2 AM and serves great milkshakes with a side of good music. It's no Cheers, but has a comfortable atmosphere).
4. Random acts of hilariousness: a) Huge pink bunny bounding down the street while we were watching Rear Window on Friday 13th on the grassy knoll b) 6 green people walking down the same street. And we had our cameras ready for this one.
5. BYU Library. I have started my summer reading kick again, and I found another good one. It's called I love you I love you I love you by some European guy in the 1940s. It seems to be right up the same alley as Sloane Crosley's I Was Told There'd Be Cake as it appears to be a series of short stories from his life compiled into a book. Except these ones aren't so funny. In fact, there is one that i briefly skimmed that talks about his experience with the Nazis. Creepy! I absolutely adore personal essays (my 11th grade English teacher would be so proud!) and I'm glad I happened to pick these up. In case you were wondering, they places to get good reading books in the BYU library would be the 5th floor in the PR-PS section = my new favorite place in the library.

Yeah. That about does it for now.

So today I went to church with my friend Stephanie from back home. She's so amazing, seriously. Probably one the most successful people I know. She lives in Belmont, and therefore goes to church in the HFAC. Holy crap I have never seen so many gorgeous people in my life. I honestly felt like every girl was smokin' hot and the guys were so well dressed...wow. WOW. Turns out the entire stake is like that. Now, I can't say I'm hot with a straight face, I'm not that ridiculous. On the other hand, I know I'm not ugly. But I will say that today I felt lower on the "good looks spectrum" than normal lol. The whole experience was so weird, I felt like I was in a different city today. Not only was church different, I also went to break the fast afterwards, which was delicious. Steph and I made an amazing salad (with her ingredients of course - asiago cheese, no less!) coupled with spaghetti, garlic bread and the best store bought double chocolate chip cookies...mmm... Everyone ate and left though. The whole point of meeting new people came to pass, but alas, it was short lived. It was nice to be in a different atmosphere as I am not moving for the first time in a long time, but I did miss my ward's laid back-ness. I was brought to remembrance again that I am just not that cool of a person, lol. And that I will never be as pretty as some of those girls or have such a lavish lifestyle. I will say though that is was lovely being with Stephanie. She is definitely different than most of those people I think. Maybe it's because I know her and I am judging her ward based off a few hours, but...no, I really think she is different.
One thing I really appreciated today was that both of us have the same love language. We are both service oriented, which means once I'm your girlfriend, I would do pretty much anything for you. We exchanged stories about past failed relationships and how that had part to do with it, and it was good. Lesson for everyone: Whoever you date, you have to understand the way the other person expresses and feels love. What you think is blatantly obvious to someone is not always that way to the other person. The best relationships are when either both people share the same language or both are willing to extend themselves in learning how to please the other. In my case, I feel loved when someone does something for me, which is how I show love for others. Service. It's where it's at. I would much rather someone show me they love me than have someone say it to me. I actually dated a guy who was much more into words of affection than I was, lol which was pretty funny at first. He couldn't stop telling me how much he cared about me, how pretty I was, or whatever. And one day he was like, "Martha, why don't you say nice things to me?" and then we had an amazing conversation about this same topic. Both of us tried to do what we both liked, and it was awesome!! Not even kidding, it was definitely one of the best lessons I have ever learned about relationships. It's one of those things you just have to experience I guess.

Tomorrow is my day off. Happy Monday :)

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Snail Mail = Bad Mail


Welp, I've decided I hate the mailman.

Ok, not so much the man as what he stands for. Much like people hate me for my job too, which somehow gives me what i feel like a "right" to send the hate right back into the universe. Karma's a wench.
Today i woke up and realized my roommate had gotten the mail. Which i realized only after i was throwing away a wrapper and realized our empty garbage can was now full of useless coupons, newspapers, etc. I was kind of excited as neither of us have gotten the mail in probably weeks, so of course, i expected something. I don't know what, but something good. Turns out i got three letters. One from my car insurance, one from the hospital, and one from BYU financial department. I opened the first only to read a simple statement that i may or may not be driving around with no car insurance. the second one was my prescription, which should have been sent to my home address in ky, which i will now have to go out of my way to overnight. The third said that i once again, for the 3rd year (= 9th semester) that i did not qualify for a scholarship. The cut off this year for a half scholarship was 3.6. Of course i have a 3.5.
Awake for 10 minutes and 3 pieces of bad news to sulk over. I think there might be a conspiracy of snail mail these days. It seems most of my bad news comes through snail mail. That would include bills, notices of bills, rejection letters, and of course notices of unavailable men i could have would have should have dated, also known as "wedding invitations."

Thus, my new found determination to read my mail at the end of the day. And to avoid the postman at all costs, afraid of getting caught giving him the stink eye. Because it's ok to give him the stink eye when he isn't looking.
So my day wasn't so bad. At least it wasn't as bad after I found out a friend of mine DID qualify for a full ride this fall...just forgot to sign up for it.

Man, Karma's a wench.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

"Like Job of Old..."

Did you know that there are 4 tombs that different religious groups claim for Job in the Bible? This pic is supposedly Job's tomb that is found in Salalah, Oman.

Last Saturday I had a few friends tell me they were struggling pretty hard, one with a soon-to-be fiance, and the other with cancer in the family, and I just didn't know what to say. To either of them really. And it bothered me I couldn't say anything that would help. Or to make the situation better. I didn't know what to do so I just prayed that somehow they would be comforted. It was at that time I felt inspired to read Job.

And of course, over half the book is about how Job's friends come to him while he's in need. One of my favorite scriptures is where "they rent their own clothes and sat with him for three days with no words..." or something like that. All they did at first was just sit with Job and mourned with him. Because there was nothing else they could do or say either that would change his situation either. Whenever I studied Job before, I always focused on him and how he dealt with his trials. I never once focused on what his friends did. And not only did they mourn with him, but they were there always reminding him of God's goodness, and how he shouldn't doubt the Creator of everything, the One who knows the beginning from the end. Why shouldn't we be able to trust Him with everything, every little aspect of our lives?

The following day, Sunday, all I did was sit with my friends. All day. We did exchange conversation, but it was essentially a day of reflecting on how different lives can change in a blink; a day of appreciating each other for our friendship. I love them so much for that. And I felt better about not being able to change the situation for them. I just hope that somehow I comforted them. Here are some scriptures I found later that night.

"...the atrial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the bappearing of Jesus Christ:
8 Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet abelieving, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory:
9 Receiving the aend of your bfaith, even the csalvation of your souls..."
1 Peter 1:7-9

7 And if thou shouldst be cast into the apit, or into the hands of murderers, and the sentence of death passed upon thee; if thou be cast into the bdeep; if the billowing surge conspire against thee; if fierce winds become thine enemy; if the heavens gather blackness, and all the elements combine to chedge up the way; and above all, if the very jaws of dhell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee, know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee eexperience, and shall be for thy good.
8 The aSon of Man hath bdescended below them all. Art thou greater than he?
D&C 122:7-8

"He who receiveth all things with athankfulness shall be made glorious; and the things of this earth shall be added unto him, even an bhundred fold, yea, more"
D&C 78:19

I love you.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

"I will break into your thoughts"


Cool first line to a song.
Let me start out with a song that has amazing vocals.
Flyleaf - I'm so sick (right click to listen)

Reasons? Listen to the freaking chorus. Can YOU hit that octave jump? Didn't think so. The lyrics are actually really insightful. To me, i think she's saying she's infected with selfishness and ignorance. She's amazing, and I've decided that she's so much better at singing than that Evanescence girl. And better looking. Plus she's cooler. And check this quote out!!!!

All five members of the band are of the Christian faith.[7] This faith influences their music, but lead singer Lacey Mosley doesn't necessarily believe that makes Flyleaf a strictly Christian band. "We all share the same faith. And so when we deal with the whole 'Christian band thing,' we kind of think about something P.O.D. says, like, 'If you're a Christian, it affects everything in your life. So if you're a plumber, does that make you a Christian plumber?' " Mosley said. "I don't know the answer. We're a band, it's part of who we are, so it comes out in our music, and it's the fuel for what we do. And finding faith saved my life. So I'm not ashamed of it at all. And most of our album reflects that."[8]
She actually was into drugs and considered committing suicide at one point. But then after going to church, she obviously changed. Anyway, cool success story! I didn't realize that they became famous through that Yahoo! competition either. AND how cool is it that she's married to the drummer?! Um, if I were going to be in a rock band, that's how I would do it too, because let's face it, that's hot. Side note: this song makes an appearance on Rock Band, the most rad video game out there. I can do this song on Medium Drums. What.

So recently, I've sort of created this group called the Finer Things Club. Hopefully, this Friday, we are going to go to pottery event on campus. Should be awesome, because, who doesn't love to get their hands in wet slippery clay? Brings everyone back to kindergarten, does it not?

In other news, I posted this picture of me on facebook that was taken over a year ago at my brother's wedding. I'm just now getting feedback on the incredibly short hair style I once had. Haha, how funny. I think I'm getting more compliments on it now then I did when I had the haircut. *shrug* C'est la vie.

Ps. I wish I could speak French (because it's beautiful). And Japanese (because it's cool). If there was one thing I wish I could do, it would be to speak multiple languages. Linguists blow my mind. I think it's one of those talents that my brain simply cannot wrap itself around. And therefore, one of my goals is to live outside the country until I can learn a different language. I'm graduating soon, so I'm sure that won't be a problem. And I've come to conclusion that living outside the country is the only way I'll learn, because school didn't work, haha.

Work was tough this week. I had a group of the nicest and meanest people. That's all I'll say about that.

So, for an anthropology project, we had to do 6 interviews and discuss different people's perspectives on beauty. It was actually quite amazing, as me and 6 people tried to establish what their thoughts on beauty were. And you have to admit, it isn't as easy it sounds! To articulate something so obscure, elusive and abstract as beauty is hard. I have to hand it to my participants for trying. I was so inspired by this topic, that I've decided to continue the discussion, and I'm going to post about it in my next post I think. I would put my paper up on here, but it turned out to be so shallow in comparison to my discussions that I know it just won't give all the insights justice. So you just have to hold out a little longer. (I want to read that book that is pictured. I wonder what it has to say.)

But here is a little taste for what's to come. I found this quote from President Hinckley and what he thinks about beauty. And if you care to comment, please do! I'd love to carry a running discussion.

"I believe in beauty.

The earth in its pristine beauty is an expression of the nature of its Creator. The language of the opening chapter of Genesis intrigues me. It states that “the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep.” (Gen. 1:2.) I suppose it presented anything but a picture of beauty.

“And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.” (Gen. 1:3.) And so the creation continued until “God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good.” (Gen. 1:31.)

I interpret this to mean that it was beautiful, for “out of the ground made the Lord God to grow every tree that is pleasant to the sight.” (Gen. 2:9.)

I believe in the beauty of nature—the flowers, the fruit, the sky, the peaks, and the plains from which they rise. I see and believe in the beauty of animals.

I see and admire beauty in people. I am not so concerned with the look that comes of lotions and creams, of pastes and packs as seen in slick-paper magazines and on television. I am not concerned whether the skin be fair or dark. I have seen beautiful people in all of the scores of nations through which I have walked. Little children are beautiful everywhere. And so are the aged, whose wrinkled hands and faces speak of struggle and survival.

I believe in the beauty of personal virtue. There is so much of ugliness in the world in which we live. It is expressed in coarse language, in sloppy dress and manners, in immoral behavior which mocks the beauty of virtue and always leaves a scar. Each of us can and must stand above this sordid and destructive evil, this ugly stain of immorality."

G'nite :)

Sunday, February 24, 2008

"Now there's desire meeting absence..."

New favorite finer thing in life = storytelling.

Tonight I went to a storytelling festival. two enthusiastic thumbs up! i mean, wow. t'was amazing. i felt like i was in kindergarten again! they featured several different types of story-tellers, old and young people ranging from loud to quiet voices telling from fantasy to historical stories. There was this older lady, kind of a stick, who spoke pretty quietly and intently; a black lady who got her groove on in the middle of her story, and a younger student from Hungary with the coolest accent!
At first, i wasn't sure how it was going to be, because we were just watching a person talk like we were in class. But, these stories each had a purpose and more importantly a really cool moral. There was one lady who told an old soufi tale called "the lion makers."
It starts with 4 men walking through a forest, 3 scientists and farmer, who came upon a pile of bones. The first scientist says, "my studies taught me how to put these bones together - it's a lion." And soon enough there was the skeleton. The second scientist said, "yes, and my studies taught me how to create muscles and tissues." And soon enough, the lion was complete, from mane to tail. The third scientist said, "yes, but my studies taught me how to bring things to life." Before he could do anything, the farmer chimed in and said, "nooo i don't think that's a good idea." the third scientist said, "what, are you jealous?" the farmer tried to explain, but the scientists mocked him for not being educated. while the farmer climbed a tree, the third scientist got to work, and soon enough, the lion's eyes opened, he lifted his head, and looked at the 3 scientists. As you can imagine, he devoured the 3 scientists, and after he left, the farmer got down and walked home."After this, she told of the story of a farmer from Maine who created the machine gun as we knew it during WWI. Her last sentence was this question, "how many lions are we creating? and where are the trees we are climbing?"
Another lady told started a love story between a Jewish man and Catholic woman. Turns out the man is Irving Berlin, the famous song writer of the 1920's who married a young girl against her father's wishes. To please her unbudging father, she complied with his request to see europe and not speak to Irving while she was gone for six months! She said she wouldn't, but wrote him every day (smart girl!). While she was away, he wrote her the song, "Always," and later gave her the rights to that song, which was good because it was worth thousands and thousands of dollars. One day, he called her up and said, "i can't live like this any longer. i have our wedding license, let's go down to the city hall right now and get married." she picked up her pocket book and went straight to meet him. Later, her father wrote her out of his will for marrying Irving. He went on to write other famous songs such as "God Bless America," "Anything You Can Do" and "White Christmas." He had quite the life-story and i highly suggest checking it out by clicking on his name above. After she died at 81, 6 months later he died at age 101. Remarkable! I will get this link up and running tomorrow so you can actually hear the song. Irving Berlin - "Always."
The last storyteller was a gentlemen who rhymed the story of cinderella like i've never heard it before, and he also told the story of the young salt shaker who fell for the sugar bowl, who in the end, learned from his mistake of falling hard too fast. again, it was exactly in rhyme, but very eloquent language. there was a mouse in the story who would quote very beautiful passages of literature from different authors, one of which i remember was shelley. the storyteller's memory...wow. to recite all that he did in such a manner that evoked such emotion! i loved it. absolutely.
Basically I just think that storytelling is a lost art. And i really wish i had better oratory skills. My mom is a teacher, and by nature she has those skills. If only she had passed on those genes to me! I get so tongue-tied and twisted. It just reminds me of that scripture in Ether 12:

27 "And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them."

Well it was a lovely few hours after a week of sickness. i'm getting over the flu (yucky!) and as such, i've done a lot of music blogging! which is short for finding new music through wonderful blogs online. For some reason, i have been way into the hiphop lately!
My song for today is by Lupe Fiasco - Superstar (pictured). I have been singing this song for 2 days! I hope you like it as much as i do. I look forward to listening to other hits from him! It's kind of a shame his name is Lupe though - it just reminds me of that disease Lupas, which even though i don't know exactly what it is, it just sounds gross and undesirable. Anyone disagree with me?

Right now, it's early in the morning and thus I find myself blogging. It brings me back to a time a little over a year and half ago, when i was studying literature. I loved my teacher, for he had a way to make poetry come to life for me like nobody else did for me. We went over lots of poetry in class, and I remember being so touched by these poems that i saved most of them in a word document on my computer. I will share one with you now, titled "Insomnia."

Insomnia

Stephen Dunn


What should be counted was counted

up to a hundred and back.


And sleep came by, I think,

sensed too much movement and left.


Now there’s desire meeting absence,

the multiplication of zero,


the mind, as always, holding out

for a perfect convergence


like a diver entering water

without a splash. There’s a part

of me terribly stilled and alert,

a silence that won’t shut off.


And there’s this need to put on the light,

to not sleep on sleep’s terms, sleep


which is after all like you, love,

elsewhere and difficult.


Not to say that I'm still awake from love's mysteries, but all the same, i might as well be. I feel like my mind is going 100 mph! It's a lovely poem. i wish i had that talent as well, to string words that evoke imagery not well known to the commoner. Oh well, one day perhaps. One day i will share with you my absolute favorite poem, but not for now, as i think it might be premature.


g'nite*~

Thursday, February 21, 2008

"If only they knew..." - God

OMG! so i totally created a new game today while i was walking on campus between classes. i somehow have created this habit of catching snipits of conversations as i'm walking, and so my new game is to come up with the funniest quote of the day. here are the few that i heard today, and perhaps you could tell me which you think is the best. the funny part is that there is no context to any of these quotes, but i'll mention what i can about them.
I'm going to start calling it my LOL moment of the day:

“Um, I guess what happens now is up to you, but I hope we can still be friends. Ok bye.”
-girl on cell phone just leaving a message. ouch.


“I could really care less about all the people who are burning in hell.”
-girl talking with her friend on the sidewalk. again: ouch.


“How are you?” “Good, how are you?” “Good, how are your classes going?” “Good, what’s life like being married?” Good…etc.”
-obvious awkward conversation between unmarried girl and married boy. i wonder if they dated before...?

“No mommy please, mommy don’t…sorry, I’m just stressed right now.”
-no idea who said this. i was looking down at the time and it was one of those unisex voices, but i thought that "mommy" wasn't kosher after age 10? 11? whatever.



“That 16 yr. old! He’s so cute, and so smiley, and so funny, and oh…so good.”
-this was an older girl, i'd guess age 24. can we say robbing the craddle?
For the record, those are more or less direct quotes. i actually had a notebook and pen and was writing while i was walking. hahaha, oh good times.


Doesn't this just make a good point about how most of the time, we have no room to judge others because we don't know what's going on?? I can't even tell you how many times people will take something they are told out of context, or apply what little information they have and blow it out of proportion. I really hate it when that happens, to myself, or to my friends. Ugh! I think the very best movie that portrayed this very concept was Crash. Talk about an excellent movie, and one that demonstrates miscommunication like no other. I honestly believe our lives have more miscommunication than we think, and probably most of it is more or less harmless, but man. I bet God is sitting up there so frustrated sometimes! "If only they knew..." -God.

Thank goodness for Swedish pop princesses such as (pictured) Robyn! Do you not love that daring hair cut? I wish i had the guts sometimes. She's got some fun stuff, I highly recommend checking her out, even though i generally do not recommend pop music. I really think pop/dance music can get a bad rep sometimes. I've decided to friend this group who creates dance mixes every sunday with different types of music. They put mixes up as zip files, so, what up. The other day, they hit their 100th sunday mark, and honestly, i think from all the comments, they have to be one of the most copied blogs ever.